Monday, July 22, 2019
Wednesday, June 14, 2017
The Battlefield
I guess we all have one - a battlefield
My battlefield, struggle is with my inner emotions
I cling and dig into so many harmful habits
In an effort to run away from my painful emotions
My pain at losing people early in life
My pain at not understanding God's form of justice
My pain at thinking and pondering and working to make things right - when they are not capable of being fixed by me.
So in my struggle - I often eat. I look for comfort.
I look to feel good for a fraction of a moment
I have added my sensuality to the sensation of chewing
And, it is still not right.
How can I get through this without causing further damaged to me.
My battlefield, struggle is with my inner emotions
I cling and dig into so many harmful habits
In an effort to run away from my painful emotions
My pain at losing people early in life
My pain at not understanding God's form of justice
My pain at thinking and pondering and working to make things right - when they are not capable of being fixed by me.
So in my struggle - I often eat. I look for comfort.
I look to feel good for a fraction of a moment
I have added my sensuality to the sensation of chewing
And, it is still not right.
How can I get through this without causing further damaged to me.
Monday, March 20, 2017
Lent, again, his blood to me
Funny is the title.
Funny is the theme.
Like in what form of English is the word Lent -- not to mean something that is temporarily given; or given with a hope of a return.
Like he did not lend me his stripes -- he gave them to me
He did not borrow time on the cross -- it was given to him
Is the old English so conventional that centuries later -- we use a term that does not apply.
My Savior.
He can be yours, however My Savior Gave His Life For Me.
No Conditions, no maybe, not in hopes of a return; other than that I Would Not Perish.
I am not even Loaned this Life.
I have to live it, come to terms with it, embrace it.
THat is my work in this place.
Live, Love, Release -- go back,
Get some more to Live Through
Love Myself in spite of it all
And Release all the trouble, hate, blah blah - etcetera back into the universe.
To guess what ...
Liven up the Room
Love the Atmosphere
And be REleased from the Enclosure in spite of the Pleasure.
To do it again.
I don't think another rendition ould help
However you have now Lived through my work
Loved a momen in Time (even if not this one)
Been Released to be free of structure or anything confining your free liberty to Conceive a Thought of your Own Choosing.
So now I have Lent my thoughts to you -- what do you feel.
Funny is the theme.
Like in what form of English is the word Lent -- not to mean something that is temporarily given; or given with a hope of a return.
Like he did not lend me his stripes -- he gave them to me
He did not borrow time on the cross -- it was given to him
Is the old English so conventional that centuries later -- we use a term that does not apply.
My Savior.
He can be yours, however My Savior Gave His Life For Me.
No Conditions, no maybe, not in hopes of a return; other than that I Would Not Perish.
I am not even Loaned this Life.
I have to live it, come to terms with it, embrace it.
THat is my work in this place.
Live, Love, Release -- go back,
Get some more to Live Through
Love Myself in spite of it all
And Release all the trouble, hate, blah blah - etcetera back into the universe.
To guess what ...
Liven up the Room
Love the Atmosphere
And be REleased from the Enclosure in spite of the Pleasure.
To do it again.
I don't think another rendition ould help
However you have now Lived through my work
Loved a momen in Time (even if not this one)
Been Released to be free of structure or anything confining your free liberty to Conceive a Thought of your Own Choosing.
So now I have Lent my thoughts to you -- what do you feel.
Thursday, August 18, 2016
Monday, September 14, 2015
That Prayer
Oh God of gracious delight.
God who sees and knows all before I say a word.
Heavenly Father I beseech you, I beg you - I solemnly lay myself before you seeking a blessing
Lord, I have known of money and how to save since childbirth. I have no outlandish habits and I am not flashy, brazen or in any way an excessive spender.
You have tempered my emotions and have brought me to a world of moderation.
Heavenly Father, please bless me with increase.
Please help me get out of debt and walk towards savings.
Heavenly Father, please lighten this load, that I may appropriately tithe and find ways to give to the myriad array of ministry that is in the world as well as my city.
Oh, Father forgive me for the days of squandering money and the days that I resented the blessing
Show me how to forgive myself for those missed opportunities that may have lead to financial affluence. Holy Father, please break any chains, strongholds and misconceived ideas with my relationship with money.
God, please bless my household -- we all work to serve you in one way or another. Help us hear your voice.
And not the least in my prayers, Heavenly Father who delights in us your children, please look over the young, bless them as they learn new topics and insights, and as they learn to arrange their own time in a way that can best assist them to be the leaders of tomorrow. Help Maria & Gabriel as they continue their college career. Seigi as he begins a new chapter on the way to a Master's, Asha as she completes her Bachelor's and tries to steer and engage her son in positive ways; Drew as he works in the profession that is being offered. And the remainder of my cousins, aunts and uncles and all my friends and extended family as they seek a way, the way, to strike a path through the struggle never forgetting your ever-present love.
Alleluya Amen.
God who sees and knows all before I say a word.
Heavenly Father I beseech you, I beg you - I solemnly lay myself before you seeking a blessing
Lord, I have known of money and how to save since childbirth. I have no outlandish habits and I am not flashy, brazen or in any way an excessive spender.
You have tempered my emotions and have brought me to a world of moderation.
Heavenly Father, please bless me with increase.
Please help me get out of debt and walk towards savings.
Heavenly Father, please lighten this load, that I may appropriately tithe and find ways to give to the myriad array of ministry that is in the world as well as my city.
Oh, Father forgive me for the days of squandering money and the days that I resented the blessing
Show me how to forgive myself for those missed opportunities that may have lead to financial affluence. Holy Father, please break any chains, strongholds and misconceived ideas with my relationship with money.
God, please bless my household -- we all work to serve you in one way or another. Help us hear your voice.
And not the least in my prayers, Heavenly Father who delights in us your children, please look over the young, bless them as they learn new topics and insights, and as they learn to arrange their own time in a way that can best assist them to be the leaders of tomorrow. Help Maria & Gabriel as they continue their college career. Seigi as he begins a new chapter on the way to a Master's, Asha as she completes her Bachelor's and tries to steer and engage her son in positive ways; Drew as he works in the profession that is being offered. And the remainder of my cousins, aunts and uncles and all my friends and extended family as they seek a way, the way, to strike a path through the struggle never forgetting your ever-present love.
Alleluya Amen.
Friday, August 9, 2013
New and Renewed, constantly renewing
The blessing that is marked on my life is so clear and evident to Satan that he constantly picks at me.
If I spend time and mind space worrying about the last thing that someone did to tick me off, that someone did to brush me aside. Just plain upfront rudeness - how much less time am I spending in the presence of our Lord and Savior.
God is good all the time.
He loves me, comforts me, blesses me and waits for me.
Though God doesn't wait to grant the blessing.
He does look forward to my coming to him with my needs.
If I spend time and mind space worrying about the last thing that someone did to tick me off, that someone did to brush me aside. Just plain upfront rudeness - how much less time am I spending in the presence of our Lord and Savior.
God is good all the time.
He loves me, comforts me, blesses me and waits for me.
Though God doesn't wait to grant the blessing.
He does look forward to my coming to him with my needs.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
When I don't have my dose of Jesus
When I woke up this morning, I thought of my husband.
I found him in the kitchen
Took him back to the bedroom and had a great adventure.
Took my shower, selected and filled my pocketbook
Remembered my Bible study - but left my Bible.
As I sit at my desk and reflect on all the why I should feel good.
I know I don't because I didn't have my dose of Jesus.
I didn't read from my "good book". I didn't do more than read the reflections of others
who had taken time to read (hopefully) and write a reflective thought
This new road.
this deep seated need to read
To find Jesus - to talk to God - to pray and to fill my spirit each day with my dose of Jesus.
They say when you seek Him, He will draw near.
Thank you my sweet Jesus.
9 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure,
10 because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead,
nor will you let your faithful[a] one see decay."
I found him in the kitchen
Took him back to the bedroom and had a great adventure.
Took my shower, selected and filled my pocketbook
Remembered my Bible study - but left my Bible.
As I sit at my desk and reflect on all the why I should feel good.
I know I don't because I didn't have my dose of Jesus.
I didn't read from my "good book". I didn't do more than read the reflections of others
who had taken time to read (hopefully) and write a reflective thought
This new road.
this deep seated need to read
To find Jesus - to talk to God - to pray and to fill my spirit each day with my dose of Jesus.
They say when you seek Him, He will draw near.
Thank you my sweet Jesus.
"Psalm 16:8-10
New International Version (NIV)
8 I keep my eyes always on the Lord.
With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
my body also will rest secure,
10 because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead,
nor will you let your faithful[a] one see decay."
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